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complaints

2005-12-22T16:12:00.000+08:00

heyss.

its onli 3 more days to xmas.but i dun feel e season atmosphere.partly coz i'm working on tt dae ba.i feel tt e workin life rather meaningless de.work and work.nth much.sighss.i wanna go back schooling.i realli wan.i realli envy those pple who get to go jc.at least they hav sth to expect in e beginning of e year..but me lea?onli work.BIG SIGHS.oki lar.mayb there's sth to look forward to-overseas trip.hope i will eventually get to go overseas ba.hmm. i nt sae veri happy now though.now life after o lvl ish nt wad i hav planned after all e hard work of mugging.i sudnt hav started work so early.felt a lil bit of regret.lucky e working environment ish quite oki.made a few frens there though.hees.if working environment sucks..i as well quit.but i cant bring myself to do tt.she's far too nice.

todae.after so long of ren nai..i finally fell sick.
sorry kiz.hees.

okies.shall end here.
tata.

off daes

2005-12-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

heyss.

finally got off daes. x)
but nth to do lea.
but at least can rest my legs.hahas.

tml.
i will be a guai ger.hee hee.
tt shall be my plan.

sighss

2005-11-29T09:49:00.000+08:00

heyss
i cant survive LONG.

kIz..i'm joining u soon.

packed

2005-11-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

heyss.
i stayed at home todae.but later going out le.hahas.anyways.i packed my books and wardrobe.yups.can u imagine?8 bags of books plus ws.wee.last time those books are so precious to us..and now so useless.its lyk so fast.i still feel tt i'm in sec one.hahas.those happy memories i guess.i feel so attached to e books.all e scrabbling on e books.all e hua chi-ing.hahas.i gonna throw and give all e books anyways.but i kept all my projects.esp DNT.i wasted so much time on it.i pon sch coz of it oso.so much hard work.i realli dun bear to throw away.so jus keep it.e rest throw.hahas.
and i'm so tired after packing.
and i was listening to jay's album.hee.thanks yuki x) i love e album to e max.

i realli miss all my fren.
esp those whom i once close wif.
pple lyk sy.its a pity tt we nt tt close anymor.i miss jems.but sumhow..i dunno how to sae also.sighss.

hais.getting emotional.stop here le.
tata.
take care pple.

oh gosh.its tml.

o lvl's over

2005-11-26T15:42:00.000+08:00

heyss
o lvl's over.hahas.long time ago actually.but i was too tired to cum online.
i hav been having fun these few daes.hahas.btw how do u define fun?no idea lea.
anyways.i hope to go out wif everyone.yar.everyone.soon ba.i will find time.

sorri cf.hahas.

anyways.ydae went orchard.went sp.sp nt much de.if going poly i dun think i going there ba.nothing there interests me.and i confirm get lost.but e food there ish nice.hahas.
saw lotsa things in orchard.interesting stuff.i love xmas.hu's exchanging prez wif me?hahahahs.

okies.gtg le.tata.take care pple.

time's passing so slowly

2005-11-22T08:48:00.000+08:00

few more hrs onli.
i cant wait.
time's passing so slowly now.
sighs.

later..i gonna enjoy myself
to e fullest.
muahaha =xXx

i cant sleep too.
no idea abt wad i thinkin.
izzit u?
or izzit jus plain excited ?
sighss.

cf..where u? =x

wah

2005-11-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

wah.everyone finish o le.onli left combine de.
its oki.

coz no diff de.
i'm slacking now x)

tml and tml and 3 days later

2005-11-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

heyss

3 more subj to go.
tml
and tml
and
3days later
*tadan!*
22/11
will cum.

real soon.

i realli cant wait.why mus our last paper be on a tues?and its at 2!so late lohs.

but now i'm alreadi damn slack.dun feel lyk studying for hist at all.stupid stalin and lenin.why did so much thingy.dun they noe tt they will make us suffer by learning wad they did.oh yar.they dunno.sheesh.tt's so lame. x=

i tried nt to think of passed papers.yea.no use thinkin abt them.no use being sad abt them.wad's impt ish tml and tml and 3days later.i absolutely wun allow any careless mistakes.not at all.yups.not all all.okies.i'll bear tt in mind.JIA YOU SHAN !

oki.back to studies.
tata.

stop sending wrong signal.i'm wide awake now.and i wun fall into ur trap again.so u beta jus give up.

facade

2005-11-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

heyss..it hav been a long time since i blogged..let me see..last entry on 24th oct.hahas..indeed veri long..hmms..now taking a lil break from my memorising.anyways..for e past 2weeks..tbs and ws hav been my great companies..and 3more weeks o lvl will be over..and i will be free ! but..wait a moment..will i survive tml first?

tml ish my first written paper-social studies.i love venice.AND pls..cum out for structured essay tml ! pretty pls! i so scared tt it wun cum out.i pray hard and wadeva tt it will cum out.sighss.and i hav been losing sleep over it.actually not realli lar.so tired until i sleep veri well.=x hahas.it's so difficult to study.but nvm.i shall jian chi dao di.JIA YOU ! and tml gt emaths too.hopefully i will get my desire grades ba.i need lotsa luck.no careless mistake.must rmb to use my brain well =x

and..i hav been so outdated wif the gossips nowadays.i hav no idea wad's going on ard me.but i managed to get hold on one of e big fat gossip though.and it refresh my memories.fren can be veri fake.yups.and we mus beware of all these fake pple.i hated them most.so fake.why pretend to be ur fren?wun it be a torture to act fake?i think i gt it.these pple are sick in e mind.they enjoy seeing pple suffer.indeed sick in e mind.sighss.all these are jus facade.SIGHS.i veri scare fren ard me will be fake.but i doubt so rite.at least shymax wun be ba.4yrs of friendship.wun be reduced to tt.
sighss.i getting so emotional over all these issues of frenship.sighss.
i'm so stressed.

*PRAY HARD FOR ME*
sighss.

back to studies.
good luck pple x)

sighss

2005-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

big sighs medium sighss small sighss !!

coz of u..
i realised alot of things.

e most impt of all
ish

i realised tt i'm nt Super-woman.
i need more time.
i cant deal wif it now.
i cant keep my cool.

nt anymor.

time dun heal my wound.
mayb a lil..but nt fully..
i dun wish to hurt u..
but do i hav a choice?

or
is there any other alternatives?
sighss.

sobs

2005-10-23T17:57:00.000+08:00

i swear i will take care of my teeth.
i swear i will.

i promise i will.

ish tt impt ?

2005-10-16T16:32:00.000+08:00

happy bdae rusel..! x)

stupid guy.
hmphs ! =x

no mummies.

2005-10-13T17:54:00.000+08:00

desmond yap bdae todae.
happy bdae to him !
though i noe he obviously wun read this.
and how ee's too.
hu wanna wish him.
onli noe how to irritate pple.lalala.=x

hmm.nice going out wif sun nu todae.hees.anyways..my legs hurt ! =x
oki.i promise after todae i wun go out le.yups.
i will study.i will.

cf..i realised tt i've been praising u.hahas.x)
i've sth to tell u anyways.hees.

oki.shall end here.tata.

my life

2005-10-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

heyss.

rather shocked when my psch fren tok to me ydae.hahas.its a nice feeling though.it has been dunno how many million yrs since i tok to her.oki lar.rather exaggerated though.hees.but its realli veri long le.wudnt it be cool to go to e same jc or poly wif ur psch fren..den becum gd fren again?hahas.yesh it ish lea.but i dun think my psch classmates will go poly ba.most of them sure aim for jc.sadded.but except for one..but rite..he lives so far..confirm choose far far poly de.sian.so i dun think i will meet them afterall..sighs.after o..i promise i will catch up wif them.i promise. x)

hmms.todae ish e last chem lesson.veri fast o pract cumin le.rather scared.i'm going for national exam lea.cant imagine.time passed real fast.and and tk life gonna end real soon.i will miss all my fren.shymax lar..him lar..cf lar..and every one who had crossed my path be4..be it my enemies or hueva lar.i will jus miss them.i hope tt i wun forget though.yups.oki.enough of emotional stuffies.

sighs..let time stop here.
let me catch my breath.
will it..?

i appreciated ur words of assurance x)

never ending

2005-10-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

heyss

my hands hurt from all e writing..cant they jus give me a break..sobbies..this ish e first time i hav so much hw..serious.hav u eva tried doing 3 source based..one sectn two..in one dae?there's much more hw..but i jus dun hav e mood to do anymor.there's e geog..amaths..sighs..nv ending.everything jus clamp tgh.
there's chem test tml too.i tot i could rest todae..but hu noes.needa mug chem.more sian.why mus we learn abt organic chem..?other topics i'm alrite..but nt organic chem !sighss..

anyways.went to orchard todae for lunch.hmm.e food nt tt bad lar.mayb somehow nt to my liking though.i concluded sth.korea ish nt my place.
and i cant wait for o's to end..hols faster cum....new yr faster cum..xiang gai ! deng wo worrs !! =x i'm excited abt other stuffies too.i'm nervous and scared.mayb it will happen earlier x) hees.

realli cant wait.
so for e sake of my hols..i will mug n mug.jia you.

weekend's here

2005-10-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

its finally finally e weekend le..!

wee..can take a lil break.hees.

btw..

i feel lyk havin famous amos now.
can someone buy for me ?hees.
realli hav e urge.
but

i think beta nt..

e consequences unthinkable =x

something's nt right..i can feel it.

nt well dae

2005-10-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

sighs.
i'm nt feeling well.

i love my parents.

all those stuffy piling up there..waiting impatiently for me.
but can i jus choose to close my eyes and try to ignore them?
e ans's no !

sighs.

off`

missed those daes

2005-10-05T16:55:00.000+08:00

i had went somewhere to feed those lil mosquitoes.oki.nt me but him.hees.x)
e weather's humid todae.

e lessons are expectedly boring.
someone sae i look lyk white riding hood. -_-"

in e end tt someone late for sch.tsk tsk.i was early todae.muahahas.

those lil things make up me..hees.

my desire

2005-10-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

i yearn for freedom..

in

2005-10-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.
wo hao she bu de.

anyways.
tt's all.

i'm feeling lotsa stress frm u u u and u !

poly.

2005-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmms.
i guess i'm heading to poly..but after much persuasion from pple to go jc.i guess jus hav to work even harder le lo.i will try de lar.but i'm 100% sure we two will be diff sch though..nvm =x hees.yups results out.it sucks.no word from my sista yet?*phew*safe for now.hahas.

hmms.
oki.nth much to tok abt though.nth much happened.next week startin e truncated timetable.i kanna poon.as well dun go rite.sian !!

anyways..jia you jia you jia you ! gogogo !

hees.
jus lyk e full house.rain damn shuai ! =p

prom's over..!

2005-09-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

prom's finally over.hahas.we've been talkin abt it since sec1..since start of last yr..this yr..and tt dae finally came n passed..! can u believe it?hahas.time flies.
e grad nite was rather oki den lar.onli e baby octopus..e jellyish thingy..e fish..and e mango pudding super nice.hahas.others..i shall nt comment much though.e waiter was friendly and nice =) hees.and den e prog were lame.nt even entertaining.everyone was bz taking photos wif one another.hahas.after e party we went kbox.first time been there.hahas.rather nice feeling to sing as whole shymax w/o e u-noe-hu.its lucky tt she nv follow us.hahahas.weee. =x i love shymax !

and i tell u.i swear i will nt wear heels again.damn pain.hahaas.make up too.so ma fan to clean up.oki.seems lyk i turning to tomboy de gan jue.but i wun lar.i admit i'm a vain gal but i think i will jus go for natural looks :) hees.yups.

nice bouquet of flowers too.. ! =xXx

hee hee.

den den.todae got back most of e results.shall nt sae much though.
but something happy to sae..i passed my geog !! hahas.. weee..

easily contented gal.
wad will they sae again.
sure nag den sae i wad n wad..den force me de.
spoilt my mood onli.i shall keep quiet frm now.real quiet.

breathe in breathe out

2005-09-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

so nervous..oh gosh..
*chill chill..*

swear

2005-09-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

i swear to myself i will nv watch horrow movie alone again..i swear !

sets me thinking

2005-09-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

abt one full dae nv tok to cf ? hees.where u ? x)

anyways.
ydae went shopping till i dropped dead.bought far too much stuff.spent too much money too.and i'm in debt now.god bless me.
and i had a gd sleep ydae.coz far too tired to think of anything.i'm not worryin abt anything.i'm no longer having e difficulties to sleep.not now for e moment.

anyways.

sorrie eve..=p next sat alrite.hees.

shymax went out w/o me too..boooo..but its alrite lar.too tired too.tt's wad i an wei myself =x

i jus finished a bk.it tells me tt..find guys mus find one of same characters..if nt wun be happy tgh.it will be more of a suffering den happiness.
and tt sets me thinkin and wondering
ish he e one ?

missed.

close

2005-09-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

we were tt close last time.
i guessed tt it passed too long tt i dun rmb it.but now i do.after all those things..and i predicted tt it will take me even longer to..nvm..i shant mention it.

lyk wad one fren sae.
-lock it in one lil small part of ur heart and let it be kept safely there-

its a lil phrase tt i will rmb ba.
although its nt those chim chim phrase but still it had a lil impact on me.yups.

oki.from now.i shall let it be.

anyways.
exam was oki.nt tt difficult but cannt sae easy too.and

tml's e last dae of exam !!!
weee.oki.i ydae alreadi hols mood le.hees

hee hee

2005-09-22T12:06:00.000+08:00

a small lil incident happened this morn.
muahahha..
but i shall nt sae.

*cf stop laughin kaes*
hee hee

hmm..sci mcq later..nv study.
god bless me.

omg..i'm so slack ! x)

-way to poly-

2005-09-21T15:11:00.000+08:00

i'm tired!
*yawn yawn*
didnt sleep tt well ydae.take so damn long to fall asleep.sighss.i have sleeping prob..and..i need sleeping pills ! anyone hav it? pls give it to me. thanks !

is e amaths tt easy todae?
no idea lea.but seems tt everyone noe how to do except me.
hahas.

wadeva.i'm aiming for poly le ! =x yups. made up my mind le.

hmm..
i'm alreadi in hols mood.hahas.tml n fri mcq nia.

i gt no mood to study le.i bet everyone's lyk me too hahas.
slacking there.

and u noe wad !

next mon prom nite le lea ! arent u excited? i am lea! hahas.

but abit nervous too.
dunno oso.hahas.

22weeks..so hard to save !

*sighs*

wad to do. wei le ta.. wo yao jia you !

and this weekend i going shopping ! weeeee !~ hee hee. hor eve ? restrict urself arhs..mus arhs.dun influence me so much. xp

Everything in life is temporary, because everything changes. That's why it takes great courage to love, knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will last forever.

hee hee

2005-09-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

evelyn hoh !
thanks to u arhs..my pocket gonna hav a super dooble big hole.. hahahas..

but anyways..
thanks for pei-ing wo todae..hees

hee hee..
there's so many things i lyk..omg.. !!

shadows

2005-09-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

its a painful yet relieved decision.
sorry if i had hurt u.

i hav no other choices.

cf: pls mess mewhen u see this blog..thanks.i noe u will auto oso.

i blogged

2005-09-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

oki.now i blog. x)

ydae nite coz diarrhoea den didnt get to sleep at all.onli lyk this morn 8plus den manage to fall asleep ba.and arhs this early morn rained and everyone get to sleep until so sweet..onli me there struggling to sleep.sobbies.

ydae went to see my father's mother.i can conclude tt everyone's getting old.sighss.i wan new yr faster cum so i can taste her cookin.hees.wif all e yummy delicious food she can prepare.and sth..aiya..sudnt comment too much oso.in case sae wrong things.so..yups..

anyways..
went chinatown too.sud hav went todae.more interesting.coz gt e dunno wad parade.oh yar.happy mooncake festival ! hees.cant imagine someone dunno sia =xXx i wan lanterns i wan candles can i go back to p sch?pls..sighs.being a teenager or adult ish no fun.sighss..missing out all e kiddy fun.hees.
back to chinatown.ydae oso veri crowded though.e lightning quite nice too.at least i hav a feel of e festival.nice.moon veri round ydae.

one more week to go !
but stress now

cry out loud`

PS.cf..so lag ! dun wanna tok to u le lar ! =x

x)

2005-09-16T15:26:00.000+08:00

damn funny.i laugh until cannt close =xXx

cf..u noe wad i tokin lar huh ! many dae de tt dae..hahahhas. =x

hee hees.

thanks arhs cf.lucky i hav u.if nt men si wo le!

nt oki

2005-09-14T17:18:00.000+08:00

friendster becum weirder.nt used to it.

hmm..

paper ok.

but i nt oki.

hahas.

cf nt here ! =x

double omen.

2005-09-13T16:52:00.000+08:00

hmm.
bad omen again.
ydae gt alot dead moths outside my hse.my sista see.nt me.plus e eye lid.wah..double omen.

anyways.
studied at mac.went sch.chem exams.it was rather oki de lar.onli some stupid q nia. =x den.home sweet home.

when on my way back..saw 2 jap gals.rather cute de..coz one of them tok animatedly..veri loud oso.i jus love jap.or issit korean ? dunno lea. hahas. =x

tml ss..hmm..real dead.
so much to study.

sighss..
emaths oso.sianss !!

phy paper.

2005-09-12T10:39:00.000+08:00

happy bdae xuan!

todae ended rather earli.

physics is do-able

but dun think can do well.

coz

my eyelid keep jumping.
bad omen i sup.
damn dottish.

oki.too superstitious le.

but..
why nt..

sighss..

j8

2005-09-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

heyss
next dae le.so fast.
which means last dae of hols.2nd dae of prelims.

2dae went j8.there are so many millions things to buy there.but seem hard to find her pressie.poor parents.walk wif me ard here n there.hahas.used bro vouchers for coffee beans too.guess they wud enjoy e coffee there.but they still prefer e jb coffee bean de coffee..there goes my vouchers.super nice ice blended.love it.but i'm too full to finish it.though dun wanna waste it..but my father sae it might be fattening..so..i threw it away.jus coz of e damn word. -_-" gt e warm muffin too.its yummy delicious.oki.i feel tt its fattening to even sae it.sheesh.

went grandma hse.finally get to plae wif cousin.she drag me to play wif her.so cute.love kids.4 more mths.muahahhas.youngest mother i sup ?ahhh.i feel so nice playin wif her.kids world.so innocent so pure.i wanna go back to my kids world.no exams.no prob.jus live happily each dae wif my toys.hahas.even though i hav prob communicating wif her..but still..hahas x) she loves doramon too.cutie.super cute.she gets so excited over it.even though she dun understand e cartoon and keep askin me to explain..but rite..i love her.hees.

i love my darling.

daze

2005-09-10T11:53:00.000+08:00

i sat alone in e living room ydae nite wif half lights on..
in a daze..
pondering..and pondering..
abt wad ?
god knows..

rather traumatised n scared by prelims.nth seems to go into my head.jus wanna hav fun..and watch tv.now all e shows seem so nice.i'm so damn addicted to it.
lookin at e books..everything seem to be in alien language..onli god knows wad issit.

ahh..can someone pls help me take exams ?

x)

2005-09-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

its a great dae 2dae.
i'm lookin at e positive side and i'm considering.seriously.i guess i jus accept it ba.yups.

to cf:
i came online but u wasnt online.u ps me! stupid guy.dunno where u go oso.faster cum back lar.ydae oso ps me.i'm such a nice gal.reply u.but u nv reply me.zhen shi de.does tt makes u feel guilty ? i guess yesh rite.muahhaha.cheng gong le. ^5 =p

umbrella?

2005-09-05T13:57:00.000+08:00

cf..so sunny find wad umbrella..dun tell me u scare of sun..hahahs..be lyk ur bro mahs..going climb dunno which mt hor.and arhs..i came online le hor.dun sae i no fingers to on com..or wad hav u.hahas.i gt fingers..hands or wadsoeva.if nt how i mess u arhs! stupid guy =p

oki.
nth much though.
gd things bad things spread fast.
heh.

brave gal

2005-09-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

she's a brave gal.its all abt getting over and startin life afresh lyk wad i did now.at least he didnt bother her anymore.instead he's protecting her lyk a guardian angel and leading her to e correct path.making her to move on wif her life.getting a job..knowing new guy..visit those places that they went be4 tgh.its hard on her.i totally understand how she feel.realli.great ending i sud sae.

and i'm nt gonna touch any storybook for now.hees.

anyways.
seems to hav alot to sae.but jus cant put to words.i needed my gf..but where are they..they are nt here for me.neither am i there for them i sud sae.i feel so lonely de gan jue.i feeling so troubled.theres a prob rite now.but i cant seem to solve it.there's no one there to help me.its all e same old thingy.i feel lyk killing pple now.i wish to be vampire.hav magical powers.jus kill and destroy e damn evidence.he will be dead and gone foreva.no longer bothering me.leaving me alone.and me lea.living my life happily.its a happily eva after story.wudnt it be great.i sup yesh.oh gosh.i nt in any sense.

shall stop here le.nt in e mood anymor.

boo woo

2005-09-03T15:44:00.000+08:00

todae's weather rather scary.with e thunder n lightnings.with e doggies n kitties..
eerie atmosphere.
i'm home alone.all by myself
but u're there.hee.

i will work harder de.
learn well frm my mother.
muahahhaa.
so tt todae de li shi bu hui cong yan. xP

lame

2005-09-03T10:12:00.000+08:00

i'm here !

a tearful dae

2005-09-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

rained.
so shiok.
long time nv.
feeling great though.
but sick.

nt me.
get well soon.
mayb a nurse

i wud consider.
hees.
patient.
skills.
knowledge.

eng paper sucks.serious.

- An outing to e Lib -

2005-09-01T18:38:00.000+08:00

heyss !!
tml's my prelim eng exams.wish me luck pple.and wish u luck too.
now i did nt have any feeling of scared or wad yet.those feeling will cum soon.tml ? later ?mayb.i think i'm too relaxed le lar.i sud be tense.but tense all tt will onli make me do even worse.

anyways.2dae went to lib to study.hahas.had a hard time finding places to study.rather packed wif those cute lil children.2dae's teachers' dae.everywhere seemed to be so crowded wif pple.why cant onli our sch have hols so tt places will be lil less packed wif pple.that will be sth i hope for.yups.but when onli we hav hols..crowded as it ish.those workin pple.squeezing those shopping mall wif us.irritating.they sud be at work.sighs.jus endless flow of pple i sup.

it rained todae.brrr..super coldish.
a step closer i guess. x)

and i being stalked by pple.so eerie.hav u eva hav those feeling be4 ? its scary.realli.he?she?they? are freaking me out.
and i think i sudnt care abt this fren.though fren for 4yrs.but i think he's a jerk which i sudnt spend time talkin to.yups.

anyways..

2dae's superstar final ! wooo..hoo..i'm so excited.not realli lar.jus lookin forward to it.coz its e final le.wonder hu will be in..hu will be out..no preference though.coz my beloved junyang's out.yar.beloved.wadeva it ish.oki.

i shall stop here.and see wad hw can be done.

see yar !

jus wondering

2005-08-31T19:05:00.000+08:00

nice n sweet feeling i sud sae.
those shy shy de gan jue.but rite..

somehow..
dunno lar.mayb think too much le.
mayb sudnt..nvm..

sorrie gie !

do la a mon !

2005-08-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

heyss..

time flies.so fast teachers' dae le.dun think going back pri sch.shall cum home and rot and plae wif those lil cute insects.so poor me.

so far rite..i onli went back once..tt was in sec1..hahas.yar..onli tt yr.hahahas..wanted to visit my chi cher..its her tt taught me chi until so gd x) always top in class de.but inconsistent.coz gt this china guy.always challenge wif him de. =x damn irritating.we two always compared by e cher too..hahas..den rite den rite..ahhhh..i wanna go back pri sch.lotsa memories there.sadded.i wish i'm doramon now.hahas.den..hahas.i shall invent e time machine !!woo hoo ! =x oki.lame.so yups.

hmm.bought lotsa stuffies todae.hahas.wanted to buy for him choco but rite.POCKET one big hole lea.super big one.and i haven buy my sista prezzie.sob.still thinkin lar har =p

hees.nice outing wif sun nu too. =) long time nv go out le.enjoyed myself.but tiring.

tml's a slack dae !! x)

sian.

2005-08-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

to cf: cannt find ur gf?tt's so sad.hahahahhaas. :p
hees.

i'm tired.
i jus realised tt i gt history test tml !! sian.nt much time left for me to mug either.
i feel lyk giving up.
so stress..pple ard me are mugging..so hard.
and me lea.
slack there.
wad can i do..

x)

2005-08-28T11:43:00.000+08:00

weee..

out for gd lunchie !!
i gonna eat till i..dunno? lols

cf !! sorrie tt i ps u again..muahaha =p

sat.

2005-08-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

to cf: i came online le.but u away i guess.anyways jus leave mess for u.hmm..i sudnt tell u abt him rite.somehow it affected our friendship. didnt it.jus gt e weird weird feeling since ydae.did u ? sighss.

anyways.todae sat.ydae was fri.tml ish sun.
i'm nt feelin great.
guys suck.realli.

wad can i do..

sick

2005-08-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

i feel sick todae.
i'm touched by you.hahas. x) thanks lots!

anyways.i'm happy 2dae.coz rite.i passed my eng!! weee..hahas.i think they lenient arhs.but i dun care..first time scored so high for eng lea.i'm serious.mayb to u low to me high lohs.HOW I WISH TT WAS MY O` or PRELIMS !! sighss. =(

weeee.. =xXx
hee hee.

x)

2005-08-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

weee.passed amaths! =x

but rite.after knowing his marks.i nt happy le.he's too pro le.dun think he will read my blog oso lar.hees.so doesnt matter lar.i sud be contented wif myself.yups.dun compare wif him.=x

anyways.sch ended oki todae.did get a lil lil cold when e sun's shinning so brightly.mayb fallin sick soon?hahas.oh yar oh yar.mrs chen adopt me for geog ! i'm adopted! gt mrs goh too. x) sian. 2dae e chi lesson mariam adopted me.hahas.i was payin attention to her.yups.yesh.and i am tryin my best to understand. x) hahas.get a lil bored n distracted though.but its alright lar.nt tt bad.she gives me e urge tt i can do well after listening to her lesson..but i doubt so.this subj ish my foreva-failing subj.cannt pass de.super sian.hahas.
oki.enough of studies liao.

prelims over !! sighss

beautiful wonderful dae x)

2005-08-24T16:42:00.000+08:00

this is the 219th entry-my mama's birthday. x) she fulfilled her role as my mama by making sandwiches for me.isnt her sweet n nice?yes.she is.x)e sandwich is nice and delicious.wif e cheese and eyes.yummy!absolutely delicious.hees.okie.enough of prasing her.she oso wun read my blog.hahas.

anyways.
todae is a beautiful day.absolutely wonderful.sch ended early.for once this week!hahas.i jus feel great going home early.last time i used to go here shop and there loiter.but now i dun feel like going anywhere except home.no mood for anywhere.home ish still e best x) too bad.some pple hav extra lessons.hahas.but still my turn will cum-fridae.it's even earlier.and our class hav to stay back.kh is such a spoiler.but oki.shant blame him hahas.slack dae.i dun wan 2dae to end.

oh yar oh yar! there's superstar todae.weee !! which means rite..one hr of revision gone.time's running out for me.i'm challenging against time.pls..let me win it.

esp todae keep finding myself smiling.hahas.coz of u ba. x)

brrr

2005-08-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

lookin at ur back..sumhow still feel sth..but its nt tt feeling anymor..

hmm..tired arhs.stomachache too.dun feel so gd..veri dottish de gan jue.hate it.didnt sleep enough.all coz of geog.but in e end cher oso nv mark.but rite..wad i studied this morn came out..quite lucky though.hees.but onli one q noe.e rest all dunno le.hahas.dottish.

2dae so cold..brrr..need a huggy..hees.
morn sky's full of stars..xing xing !

x) hee.

ahhh..sian

2005-08-21T12:44:00.000+08:00

tired.
restless.
sick.
tt's wad i feeling todae.

he's getting weirder each dae ! =x
stubstition i guessed.or mayb think too much.

the maid

2005-08-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

todae ish e 216th entries..hee x)

watched e maid le..to me quite nice lar..hee..scary..sad..happy ending though.hungry ghost..its jus those customs that makes it scary lar..hahas..yups.

e feeling jus nt e same..hahas.thanks parents ! =) jus feel great watchin wif them.its been a long time since i watched wif them le..u lea?i guess its time u sud watch movie wif parents lea..bond tgh ! hee hee.

oki.i think tt's all.too much things now to blog quietly.hee.
bb! =)

oral's over !

2005-08-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

heyss..

todae's oral topic is quite easy.however, i did screwed up.mayb i screwed up by a little bit.mayb by alot?i had no idea.all i know is that i talked more than 10mins and i was super nervous.mayb i will do well?hopefully.i pray super hard for it.super super hard.e examiners were rather nice.and e guy was..funny.hahas.yups.oki.i sudnt make fun of pple.furthermore my examiner.yups.tt's y lohs.i tell myself nt to be nervous..it's jus a oral.but somehow in e hall i feel e intense and pressure.and urge to do well.but still..wad's this man !it always turns out otherwise.zhen shi de.lotsa of things to sae for e topic..but nervous destroy all.suan le suan le.wad's over ish over.and yesh..it's finally over !

and..

i pass phy !! woo- hoo !! =x oki.its onli a b4or3 though.and wee sae i sudnt get this grade.he thinks too highly of me le lar.but with his teaching..how to get A ! =xXx lalaa..i'm nt late for sch le.cannt catch me le.cum lar..nt scared =x hee hee.so lame.oki.

i dunno lar.she's playin hard to get.tt's e impression she gives me.hmm..hard to get.love even more.

damn..i'm feeling down..

english oral

2005-08-18T19:11:00.000+08:00

ENG ORAL's TML !!
i'm so dead.

wish me luck pple !

happy happy dae

2005-08-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

hee hee.
happy dae? i sup` so
overall dae ish oki ! yups.
and i saw 2 flying sauces too.isnt it cool hahas. x)

improvements in geog ! and amaths. whahahas.
jia you !

early dismissal !

2005-08-16T16:20:00.000+08:00

my english oral ish round e corner.3 more daes to be exact.i wonder what kind of picture will be coming out.hopefully e picture is some easy topics.that is wad everyone's praying for.isnt it ?

i'm tired. i'm sleepy. it is all because of the korean show.i'm a super televsion addict i should say.hahas.i'm glued to the television.there is no escape for me.

today school is supposed to end at 2pm sharp.It has been a long time since i really reached home before 4?hahas.sec4s are so poor thing i should say.nvm.we are graduating soon.pretty soon! anyways..mrs choi wanted us to stay back.saddening isnt it !i had it all planned out.Going home and sleep for all i want.But one lesson spoilt it all.it is a pity but e lesson is rather short and sweet.so..its nt that bad after all lar.hee hee.

oki.i shall end here le.off to my dreamland. x)

abt u..mayb yesh mayb no..i dunno.

happy ger!

2005-08-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

thanks those pple..esp kIz and xuan and mich n tyug..i'm feeling beta! =) no worries abt me. thanks for e shoulders..hee hee.

though ydae tears coax me to sleep..but realli..i'm feeling beta. much beta.

yu guo tian qing le!! =p hee hee.

chi results

2005-08-12T16:19:00.000+08:00

its tt feeling again.
i gt tt feeling when i heard e hueva announced tt our band gt gold instead of gold wif honors.yar its tt damn feeling.i knew i was nv blessed.i knew i was nv tt lucky.how can i get a a1 wif such stupid luck ?
actually i sud feel happy instead of sad.but i'm jus not satisfied.feel so dottish to see tt grade instead of wad i wan on e cert for my cheena-my onli subj which i can score.

oki.u can sae me pampered.wadeva.
and i decided.i mus start studying.i realli must.i dun wanna this feeling anymor.its terrible.its super terrible.though this time i nv regret but still i could have started revision earlier? but i realli did my best le.i swear.
and tt damn ger got her a1?wad nv study.jus some stupid craps which i will nv believe.

hmm..actually i dunno how impt i am to u..every actn seems to tell me tt u dun realli care..this time not even a console frm u?jus a rush to put down phone.hais.wadeva.

to U:
i dunno how are u feeling now.but i'm sure u sure gt abit bit of disappointed no matter wad?mayb my words wun be tt effective as compared to hers..but still..wanna ask u not to be dishearten..yups..u sure get ur A e next time round.jiu shi zhe yang.dun wanna sae or comment much though.

i yao feng le !

2005-08-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh..stupid friendster!!so damn irritating..i cannt see!but wait..sudnt i bo chap..yar..i sud..so sheesh ! =x

tml's chi o lvl cuming out..i ydae nv sleep well..2dae confirm no need sleep too le.hais.i'm scared.i'm gonna break down any moment.=(
i hate this..eeeeeee.so scary.hmph.

nice outing ydae btw =)

=))

2005-08-10T12:00:00.000+08:00

wee !! i'm going out.. hees.

happy belated national dae!

2005-08-10T08:47:00.000+08:00

heyss
i didnt hav chance to blog ydae when i reached home.whose fault ? my bro.hmphs.his and his stupid temper.

anyways.its national dae ydae. happy belated national dae ! hees. and some pple jus lyk to sae me betrayer..unloyal to sg. but onli go jb mahs.wad's e big deal! zhen shi de. =p
and sorrie kIz..hee hee.next time i go wif u if gt chance lar. and blame my parents kaes. hees.but ur fault oso lea.one sms dunno take how FAST to reply.hahas.

anyways.quite a smooth trip ydae.hahas.wonder why..last few times we go needa wait super dooble long until i super pissed. this time jus tt needa wait abit bit nia.other den tt veri nice trip there.
everytime i go other countries will feel abit insecure de..its lyk..haiya..dunno how to describe e feeling also.hais.den i will be lyk a small lil ger..hookin my parents hand.hee =x yar..i'm jus a small kid.i dun wanna grow up.
bought things.again.but dun realli dare buy much oso.its coz of tt 400.hahas.oki.den they bought tt tian zhu for me.that's their aim this time for going there.yups.and they bought one for sista for her bdae.hers i lyk.and its ex.and tt reminds me tt her bdae cuming.HAI.dunno wad to buy for her lea. =(
anyways.my aunt came so didnt hav chance to go watch fireworks! i'm so sadded and traumatised ! hais..every yr i oso get to see..but nt this time.i'm so sad!! hais..my uncle and he oso sae gt e fireworks sparkles..where gt same ! hee hee.

oh yar oh yar! jb taxi drivers suck to e core! hmphs.

oki.end here.off`

=O

2005-08-07T11:16:00.000+08:00

wahs..i'm tired.

ydae shopped for e whole afternoon! and guess how much i spent in one dae?400bucks lea.arent i pro? hahas.hees.its my sis lar.allow me to buy this and that.hahas..too bad le.she super teng wo. and i love her to e max.she just rocks.hees. x) yea.i jus love shopping.stay at home all dae ish nt gd de.lalala.hees.den didnt meet any tk pple.mayb they all at home studyin except for me.hahas.but no lea.frm wad i heard quite alot pple go there lea.tt's weird.

den reach home mus go out again.went to my grandma hse. her bdae mahs. heard tt it's zm bdae oso rite.hmm..nt a pleasant dae though it's her bdae.mayb i sud be a kid den i wun hear abt all these thingy.so i wun feel sad abt it.yups.jiu shi zhe yang.den reached home super dooble late.and i slept super dooble late too.tt's y i'm tired.cannt sleep veri long oso.hais.sian.dun wanna study lea.wanna dropout of sch.can i?

cannt! i still mus study hard.hk!!mus wait for me.i will be there soon.real soon.jia you! x)

weeeee`

2005-08-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

finally finally..
e mini hols are here ! weee~ heees.

went to eat e choco fondue.hees.its yummy..but so lil..eat le dun hav e feeling of satisfactory. hahas. =) lil coz shared among 6 pple..and e pple there veri stingy..onli give a lil lil choco. so nt worth it. but its nice nice nice! triple nice. hahas. =x and its jus a lil lil choco..wun do much harm.hees.

i passed phy.miracle do happen.hees.but veri low lar.sure get minus bonus de.saddening.hmms`

and..
yuki!! take care of urself. drink lotsa water.
miss u =)

and xuan!! i'm lookin forward to tt outing though.its been a millions yrs le.hahas.

a love story-

2005-08-05T18:15:00.000+08:00

It was a classic summer love,
sweet kisses and warm embraces,
whispering small, "i love yous."
dreaming of each others faces.

The girl came down from the city,
the boy had always lived there,
who would have known,
that this would start from a stare.

They were together all the time,
they were always having fun,
if they had it their way,
they'd live together, under the sun.

But this summer she had to leave,
he promised he would call,
she told him she would wait for him,
and see him in the fall.

The last day she was there,
he promised her he would wait,
he said he'd always love her,
and that meeting her was fate.

She quietly sobbed on his shoulder
and whispered, "I'll miss you."
he looked down into her eyes,
and said, "I'll miss you too."

She stepped into her car,
and looked up into the sky,
and turned to look once more,
he was still there, waving goodbye.

The school year was halfway over,
and he hardly called at all,
but she still loved him the same,
and was waiting for the fall.

The time had come for her to see him,
she was more excited than ever before,
she smiled at his doorway,
awaiting to be greeted with hugs & more.

But what awaited her in the doorway
was his mom with sad eyes,
the mom told her he was waiting for her,
so he could say his goodbyes.

The mom said, " he has been sick,
sick w/ something i dread,
he has been fighting cancer for years,
he should already be dead."

The girl didn't know what to do,
she just quietly stood there
she didn't know what to say,
but she spoke quietly, "where?"

She arrived at the hospital,
and ran to him and said,
" why does it have to be you,
why can't it be me instead?!"

He wryly smiled at her,
he couldn't move he was so weak,
he whispered quietly, "i love you,"
it even hurt him to speak.

"i promised you i would wait,
and i have waited as long as i can,
I've prayed to God every night,
to add a few more days to my plan"

He lifted his hand to her,
and dried off her tears,
"don't cry for me,
it's been this way for years."

She grabbed his hand and held it,
"i will always love you,
you're the only guy for me,
and i know our love was true."

He gave her a sheet of paper,
" i wasn't sure if i would see you,
just read over it when you're lonely,
and know that i love you, i do."

His eyes fluttered shut,
& his hand was no longer gripping,
this pain that she was feeling,
it felt like her heart was ripping.

She cried for awhile,
then remembered the little note,
she slowly unfolded it,
to see what he had wrote.

"My darling,
I promised you i would wait,
and i waited as long as i could,
i wish i could be with you forever,
if i could you know i would.

I was fighting with cancer,
i had it that summer i was with you,
but having that one summer,
was an undreamt dream come true.

I fell in love with a beautiful girl,
and that was enough for me,
you were perfect, wonderful,
my beautiful, undreamt dream."

ben nu ren

2005-08-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

damn it.
i sudnt hav read last time entries.
memories and memories.

i changed alot le.yar.serious.from e veri first entry to now.
i realised tt i was super ignorant last time.i sud hav known tt.i'm realli ignorant.blame on me being gullible.

damn it.

xiang bu tong

2005-08-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

wonder wad u're thinkin..issit i'm thinkin too much?all ur actn seem..hmm..oki..i shall nt think and sae le..shhh`

e sky's cryin. boo woo !

nowadaes seeing lotsa couples tgh gather.all those weird weird de.and some guys are jus flirt.its obvious.but gals seem to ignore tt fact.isnt tt saddening.yesh i think it ish lea.hahas.

hmm.okies.tt's wad i wanna sae ba.

off`

dead serious

2005-08-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling weak and dizzy..
sth bad happened jus now.
i'm dead serious.

....

2005-08-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.

wad else can i sae. no idea.

normal sch dae?

2005-08-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

heyss
my c.sci ish so damn screwed up.practically everything dunno how to do.but isnt tt normal for me?yar hor..its veri normal.so i shant complain so much.hahas.but den..bonus point's gone..isnt tt saddening.yesh.it ish.hais.why am i replyin myself. =x

anyways.2dae sch ended early but dun hav sec4's share.saddening isnt it.sch ended normal for us.hais.tml same lohs.but i sup will be even later?coz ish geog mahs.last audi lesson rite?yups.i complained to wee wee abt e stress i'm having..but dun think he gt any gd suggestion.he jus smiled.hahas.yar.at least some reactn i guess.lol.okie lar.i dun usually lyk to communicate wif chers.but den i suffocating wif all e stress..no1's helping me to deal wif it.so i grab e chance for some help lohs.okie.i dunno wad am i tokin again.

2dae ish my sun nu de dear de bdae.first time eva see her so..dunno wad's e word to sae. but its sth nice lar.i can sense true love.muahahaa. =p and sun nu arhs..u are so creative..how cum i dun get such treatment on my bdae..i'm sho jealous.hee hee.okae.sheesh.

hmm..ydae kinda quarrelled ba.i didnt noe wad to do though.jus plainly replied wadeva he sae.wad to do if realli gt such situation again?dun ask me. i hav no idea.oh yar oh yar..ydae watched my boyfriend is type B. so damn nice.i fall in love wif him le! he's my next bf.hahas.and lucky he's not type B. heeees.and i'm nt type A.hees.

hmms.okies.shall end here le.tata. x)

hahaha..no fate wif u again! u noe hu u are lar :) heee.

useless.

2005-07-30T14:40:00.000+08:00

i veri useless.
cannt resist e temptation.
sian.

sticky sticky de.

2005-07-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

one word. tired !

ydae i returned my band jackets. veri she bu de..i miss being in e band. but dun lyk going back for pract. irony i noe. tt's me lohs. sadded. lotsa memories wif e jacket and other parts. it's a victory uniform/jacket i sud sae. heees.

2dae's slack dae. but chem spoilt it all. had practicals. scary. coz fear tt i wud do e wrong thingy and everything. but still everyone seemed to hav their way of copying ans. i mean sharing. yups. hahas. after chem i'm feeling super sticky..ee..e weather so hot summor. cant stand this hotness. other den chem it's okae lar.

didnt get to go for e gals outing. sad isnt it. i long wanted to eat e choco thingy..but always no chance. hais..ask me go alone..too ex and i dunno how to order..hahas. =x

sian.

time machine?

2005-07-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

sch as usual. was nt late for sch todae. reached on e dot. hees. morn mus clean e stupid table. ydae jus draw e wording so nice..den mus clean le.sian.opps =x i nv vandalise. hahas. den pe quite fun too. unexpected. hees. i rather plae my own games den to plae e cher's games. cher game i nv enjoy myself lohs. so sian. =x badminton rox. i miss my childhood fren. i dun think we eva can plae together again? it onli stay as memories ba.yar lohs.hmms.geog n blahs blahs blahs. lessons so boring. yawn !! i'm getting tired. i'm getting restless.

...my eyes closing soon le...

gals outing tml..hee hee.i'm lookin forward to it =]

let nature takes its course.hees.

2005-07-27T18:35:00.000+08:00

prelims eng oral's over.i'm in deep shit.it sucks.realli.

i hav to work harder for my compre and wadsoeva le.
shan !! jia you will u?!~

i shall let nature takes its course.i will nt let it trouble me anymor.so no need go on an isolation anymore..muahahas.u mus be veri happy ba..onli if u will read my blog now. hee hees. =]

feels bad to lie to her..but wad's over ish over le. she sudnt hav mention it in e first place mahs. so i wun hav to lie. but sumhow..haiya.i'm sorry jiu dui le. that stupid guy ish a bastard realli. he simply sucks to e core. if i angry..wad can i do..bash him up? no way..i'm way too gentle..hahas..yar..according to my character..i jus let it pass..tt's wad i doin now isnt it. yea. life moves on. hee hee. but sumhow i shall explain to e substitute? mayb? but doesnt tt means tt another person will noe? no way. i will find a way out de. rest assured. hee hees.

hmms. anyways. 2dae so qiao.so dottish.ask for it and it came.hahas.dottish. hmm..i'm feeling great though. hee hees.

...lalalala..
off`

yi ran shi peng you =)

2005-07-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

情人节的前一天他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念

那一夜我陪着你你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他(也)一样很想念

直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店

才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么除了我自己没人懂
可是你你怎么说你知道后是不是从此避开我
OH 我一样难过多希望我们不曾相识过

那一夜我陪着你你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他(也)一样很想念

直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店

才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么除了我自己没人懂
可是你你怎么说你知道后是不是从此避开我
Oh 我一样难过多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭不再难过我们还有好大好大的天空 Oh
故事的最后我们都不曾失去过什么

我们依然是朋友 Wu

x) nice song isnt it. love this song. hees.
anyways. morn rained. sky's cryin..mus be hinting i decided on e wrong stuff? i'm sorry. still need more time. yea.

die die..tml's e dae. i'm dead so dead. this pic depicts a scene at.. ahhh..cannt lar..veri scared..=( bad dae. tml's a slack dae..but i cant seem to relac. next week gt so many tests..hais. SIAN.

phy sucks

2005-07-25T18:11:00.000+08:00

...to u...
tt's e best soln i can think of. i think its fair to u n me. i been too cold to u le..so yar.. this ish e best soln. fair n square. dun u think so? hope u wasnt hurt by my decision. yar. and dun worry abt me. i will be fine. =]

phy sucks. wee wee sucks. lucky e qns i wanna ask nv cum out. if nt i gonna slaughter him to pieces. use his meat to feed chicken feed cow feed duck feed fishes. no. i dun think those animals wud wan his meat too. so yucky. !! hahas =x okies shut. oral cuming. i'm dead.

hmm..

2005-07-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

x)
i'm here to destress !

everyone noe e meaning of "yi dan shi qu cai hui dong de zhen xi"..but why dun they cherish in da first place when they noe it ?

jc or poly?

2005-07-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

i went to NTU 2dae..its super big u noe. yar..need bus to get ard. its e second time i go there. tt time onli get to go e netball court. now i get to go ard e sch x) i was thinking if tk gt sho big.. i happy liao. coz can hav e chance to get lost. =x realli lea. i saw newbies taking map oso mahs. hees. actually rite its nice being a da xue shen. gt alot of freedom and need nt go lesson so EARLY in e morn. and there's hostel !! i wanna stay in hostel. hees. but damn diff to get hostel in u. nvm. hahas. and arhs! i kanna mistaken as da xue shen lea. muahahhaa. pple ask me for directn kaes. hmm kaes lar..i look childish but i still chose to believe she mistaken me. dun care. x) hees. quite a fruitful trip 2dae. but summor i still dunno wad i wan..JC or poly? i cant seem to make up my mind. anyways..i woke up damn early. e journey was DAMN long kaes. one end of mrt to another. when go there i nv sleep..cum back i literally jus fall asleep on my father's shoulder. its too far and tiring le. hmms. slept straightaway when i reached home. until now.

yawn..i'm tired ! =)

tired lea.

2005-07-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

i'm tired !
it has been so long since i ever go out. hahas. ya. its true enough kaes. and i'm tired from all e walkings. i went to e national library too. jus opened 2dae. its sooo big and grand and nice.. i simply love it. x) e air con sho shiok too. a nice place to study my o lvls. full praise for tt place. hee hee. but one thingy i dun lyk ish..dun hav shopaholic bks !!! disappointed kaes. hahas. i still gt 3more bks to finish e whole series lohs. but my sis dun wanna buy. sadded. nvm. i borrowed others bks instead. yar. surprisingly i will read books. but i do read kaes. i love sophie kinsella's bks. they are fabulous!! woo-hoo! they made me addicted de lohs. den will read non-stop. laugh non stop too. and daydream non stop to becum a tai tai. hees. =x anyways NE first dae open mahs..lyk veri fun to borrow..so jus borrow lohs. hees.

e worst part for 2dae ish going home during e peak hrs. SIAN. mus squeeze in e damn train. legs are tired. jus wanna find a seat. but always snatched by obasanS! damn. they super fast. zhen shi de. not onli evening. morn oso mus squeeze bus wif those pple. sian 0.5..i cannt stand it lohs. so damn dottish..cant they go later? why mus go sch same time as us. qi si. i hate going home or sch during peak hours !! sheesh.

tired tired tired. i'm so damn tired. i had drained my energy therefore i dun hav any excess energy to think of ways to resolve our prob. i noe tt we can let nature takes its course. but i dun wish to let u wait or sth. but i dun wish to let u go too. wad else can i do? nth le mahs. rite..? troubled still.

i miss all my fren. i want turn back to those times
when i am in sec1 n 2..i..
nvm lar..suan le..sudnt sae here..too personal or mayb too indirect. and might even cause more unnecessary troubles. so sheesh.

okies..stop here.
tired to go on`

san xin liang yi

2005-07-20T17:44:00.000+08:00

hmms i'm starting to be flicker-minded again. seems lyk i'm gonna change my mind again. NO..cannt..sheesh.

anyways.
sch as usual.nth special or worth mentioning.

i'm bored.
i'm scared.
i'm stressed.

hmm..friendship ish jus lyk tt lohs. i cant sae or do much though. drift de drift. close de close. wad else can i do.

crying.

2005-07-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

e sky ish crying.
freezing cold. brrr`

early morn sista wake me up! she talks so loud on e phone. zhen shi de. but cannt blame her oso lar. hor..e that woman oso veri guo fen.. if me i oso will do tt. let everyone noe abt e stupid her. x)
sup to go JB de..but i gt alot of hw so decided beta nt. heees.

sian` offff.

disgusted`

2005-07-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmm..sum pple onli noe how to flirt wif gals. i jus cannt understand why pple hav to be a playboy? can they jus be normal? cant they survive without gals! are gals or gf so impt to them? break up le den go find another gal. jio bu dao den jio another? for god sake..dun abuse 'love'. and dun plae wif pple's feeling. u noe hu u are. i hope u reflect on ur own behaviour pls. disgusted by ur attitude. truly disgusted.

=))

2005-07-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

Slowly dancing, spinning, twirling.
I love the way the rain washes away my tears
never to be seen again
and for that one moment takes away my fears.

my clothes are drenched
But I'm still dancing in the rain.
My hair is a mess, but I don't care;
The rain is taking away my pain.

Dancing in the rain, I don't care who sees;
For another moment in life I'm painless.
I don't care what happens;
I'm fearless.

Dancing forever in the rain;
The rush of droplets on my face.
I'm dancing, spinning, twirling.
The feeling of true grace.

I don't want to leave;
I'm forever dancing in the rain;
I'll never leave.
Here I will always stay.

Come and dance with me;
Be fearless, painless.
Do not let the horrors of life sweep you away
Come dance forever in the rain.

Feel sweet nature nurture your soul;
Feel the pure love;
Feel the grace pouring down
From the heavens above.

lc finished!

2005-07-15T18:48:00.000+08:00

boo.
chinese l.c. finish le. yippees. chi o` ish finally over. actually i long treated it as over le. so no diff oso lar. lols.
this weekend lotsa stuffies to do. i'm nt lookin towards it anymor. sian.
i think i sudnt think too much to it..it's jus a simple friendship. close or nt close doesnt matter anymor. gonna graduate soon oso. will keep in touch? i hope will.

i'm startin to miss u..hahas..x)

2005-07-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

wo shi xin fu de! x)

anyways..sch as usual..hw and stuff lyk tt.
heard shocking news this morning. fragile relationship. i hav no faith in love anymor. such a sweet and sure-last-foreva couple yet they broke up. isnt tt saddening. though it doesnt concern me at all..but i still feel kinda pity for them. sighs..i'm realli puzzled..they survived thru those wars of usual stupid things lyk trust and all tt that wud break couple up..but they lost in e battle of tt damn thingy. jus a damn thing. no more true life eg to show me tt true love exists. sadded.

nt onli that.
i realised that guys always break their promise. so wad if break up. dun they need to keep their promise..so dottish. nvm lar. this kinda guy bu yao ye ba. hu cares abt them. we mus learn to be open minded..or issit that word to use..yea. move on. e next one will be a betta ones. wow..i learned that and truely noe e meaning of it. when it's nt urs..it's realli nt urs. pple change..guys change..so once break up we sudnt look back. coz he's nt e guy who u once noe. he changed for e worst. so move on..yeahs..tt's wad i tell myself. and i moved on! x) i'm glad.

okies. sud get going. lotsa hw to be done. when can all these end. sighs. i'm lookin forward to sat! lala..hees. =]

you.

2005-07-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

inconsiderate.
irresponsible.
bastard.
i no longer respect u.
despise u to e max.

haiss

2005-07-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

eat sleep do hw but nt finished yet.
i'm bored to death.

i'm feeling sad. coz he's feeling sad. hope tt he will get over it soon.
loving someone doesnt mean having him.

it's jus abt love.

patience

2005-07-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

i wanna see shooting star..
when's my turn ?

cheena oral over hees

2005-07-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

heyss..
my cheena oral finally oveer le. =) i think quite okay lar. abit nervous here n there so screwed up a lil lil bit. but overall sud be okay. hopefully can pass n do well. hees. BUT wad if i fail.. aiiya.. wun de. shh.. dun think too much. hmms. my eng oral cuming.. sians. another thingy to worry. but for now.. i feeling kinda relieved n relax. dun feel lyk doin anything except for spa n wadsoeva. mayb swimming too? hahas. i noe.. dun laugh kaes. i wanna swim. swim lyk a pink dolphin. isnt cute n magical. oh dear` i miss sentosa. =))

anyways.. this week passed rather fast though. hear quite a lot of gossips.. I'M SAD AND TRAUMATISED TOO. sighs. =x hate third party de. serious lea. xuan u finally understand how i feel le bahs. hees. aiiya.. hopefully e rumors nt true. hopefully he's nt lyin. i mus live my life wif no regrets. yea. tt's e way.

its nt tt bad being wif u afterall =))

=)) a day to be rmbered

2005-07-05T18:48:00.000+08:00

weee.. ydae went sentosa. go there white white cum home red red. zhen shi de. hahas. =)) i wanna tan my leg.. in e end ish my face kanna tan. qi si wo le. hees. anyways. i enjoyed myself thoroughly ydae. love shymax to e max. hees.

2dae geog die le. i sure fail de. no mood study. summor so tired. wadeva. study harder for e next test lohs. hees.
2dae yukiz bdae. but she nv cum. big time slacker. jus lyk those sharks.. bleahs =p happy bdae kIz !! hees. and yvonne too. happy bdae nu er!!.. but she wun read oso. nvm.

hmms. gie!! dun be traumatised !! relax heees.

sian.
off`

take a break.

2005-07-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

feeling nt lyk me 2dae. kinda restless.
anyways. one week of hols is finally over. torture. so much to absorb. my brain cannt take it anymor. wad i can onli rmb ish e calculator thingy. so cute de. didnt noe gt such functn. x) heees.
anyways. gt 3 days of hols. hope i will enjoy myself. quite alot of hw though. amaths ish enough for me to think quite long le. sian.

oh yar. i watched war of e world. its scaary.. cannt imagine our world wif machines invading us. wudnt tt be.. so.. hmm.. sheesh.. i sudnt think anymor. its a nice movie anyways. x)

mon going sentosa ! hees. hope will tan somehow.. lyk tt will win bro. hahas. he always compare wif me. bleahs.

wahs. realli hate wad i feeling now. sucks.

=((

2005-06-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

sch's starting tml le.
booo. !

=))

2005-06-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

heyss.
i had a long talk wif him. yea. and i cried. it has been e longest time since i cry over him. i guess last time all e tears can fill up one super dooble big container le? and i dun think i'm exaggerating. all e fights n quarrels. anyways. i had expected e results but i think i sud jus try though. and yea i did gt a reply. harsh n straightforward. i tried my best to liven up e atmosphere in e end. and luckily e conversation ended quite peaceful n nice. and we are still fren. if nt i blame and hate myself.

i think i veri useless. coz seems cannt survive without him. always living in those gd memories. and even so shameless to ask those stupid questions. i realli cant stand myself. but if i think on e bright side.. i applaud for my own courage. if i nv ask. i guess i can nv move on. i will be there moaning abt breaking up and stuffies. so now i'm telling myself. i'm realli moving on. realli. no doubt abt it. memories stay wif us foreva. yea. x) i will rmb him as my lovable stead. =x

tt marks e end of my first stead.

he changed. no1 will see e caring and gd side of him except for me. i had seen it. and i will treasure it in my memories. =))

anyways.
these few daes i keep having nitemare if nt will be sleepless nites. hope tt i can sleep well 2dae. wish me luck ba. its e last dae i can sleep till late late. let no disturbance frm my mother pls.
sunday mus study for tests. damn sian. sch reopen first dae gt test. its CHEM !! and phy. chem will minus marks if did badly lea. hais. sian.

edison damn shuai. he's my steadie now. foreva in my heart. getting mushy. hahas. =x thanks kiz for pei-ing wo to watch. heeees. and rmb.. he's mine. bleahs.

kaes lar shall end here. at least sounded cheerful now. hmm. nites`

blurs

2005-06-21T11:18:00.000+08:00

heyss
ydae didnt even sleep.
coz of my serious flu.
zhen shi de.

hopefully will recover.
i wanna be sick. but nt now.
lai de zhen bu shi shi hou.

:)

sick

2005-06-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

i'm sick now.
and guess wad.
no1 cares except for dagian n family.
love them.

poor me.
mayb i deserve all these?
ya. mayb.

sobbbb my lungs out..

troublesome.

2005-06-19T15:31:00.000+08:00

sighs.
wad sud i do. i gt no idea at all..
help !!

pissed but happie

2005-06-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

took damn long to reach there. so pissed.
n no seafood.
but lotsa gd food n shopping.
so its okies.
heees x)

kIz.. miss ya! realli cant wait for tt dae. *bleahs*
no heels pls. =x

sorrie if i treated u coldly. theres lotsa of things going thru my mind..

hees

2005-06-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

seafood here i cum.
shopping here i cum.

weeeee~